Oh God, my God, here comes my enemy again. Make it go away. I know it’s coming when at night, I become cold, needing three blankets to get warm. Cold chills creep up and down my shivering body. Black shadows come. I sleep that way, knowing what the morning will bring: Fear. Relentless and cruel. … Continue reading GIANTS… A Battle Psalm (2 Year Anniversary of My Husband’s Death. Dave Pelleman lives in Heaven)
I’m tired, way past fatigue, and extended beyond exhaustion. I’ve barely been able to write. I am a regrettably a year behind in answering messages and replying to comments, and I’ve only written a few posts. But, I always post on Easter; my late husband’s favorite holiday and mine, so I’m giving it a go… … Continue reading 2024/3/31 Dying to Live… Easter Grief Through Loss… How Can Anyone Go on Without Jesus?
Dearest Dave, Yesterday morning, after only one hour of sleep, the dogs woke me up to go outside. There was a gorgeous red sky, and I wanted to appreciate it. But, I was already seeing red; because I just couldn’t sleep last night… not at all. “Great is his faithfulness; his mercies begin afresh each … Continue reading 2024/2/21 Dear Dave, It’s Been an Entire Year of Grief… Heaven Sent Me a Cardinal
Our dear Dave went to be with Jesus on February 21, 2023. He was not alone; he was with family. I got to touch his cheek and tell him I loved him. I called on Jesus, and he drew his last breath. Dave was a great guy; he was loud, hilarious, fun, brave, handsome, musical, … Continue reading 4/8/23 Dave’s Testimony: Eulogy… Hope and Encouragement During Grief, Cancer, Pain, and Suffering
Somewhere, under the rainbow, When I die, You’ll bring me over the rainbow, Where I can finally fly! I pray, but not wish, on a star, That you will take me where you are; And find… me… waiting. Where joy is is full, And evils stops; I’ll find myself above cloud tops, And I’ll… be… … Continue reading 4/7/23 Dave’s Testimony: Somewhere Over The Rainbow (Poem)
David Russell Pelleman went to be with Jesus on February 21, 2023. He died at home in Berryville, Virginia; with family by his side. Dave was born in Lincoln, Maine on November 29, 1970. He was the son of George H. Pelleman and Diane Lufkin (Thurlow). Dave was raised by his mother, and his grandparents, … Continue reading 2/21/2023 Dave’s Testimony: Obituary… Dave is in Heaven with Jesus!
God gives the time; Jesus gives rest. Trusting in Him is the ultimate test. New Year’s lived out in the worse déjà vu; You couldn’t believe if this happened to you. His cancer is spreading, he’s been denied care, but miracle hospice is answer to prayer. Hospice. It’s a dreaded word; yet it’s the only … Continue reading 1/22/23 Dave’s Testimony: Hospice… God Provides a Way to Receive Rest and Pain Relief from Spreading Cancer
Is somebody being a real “turkey” to you this year? Thanksgiving can be a tough time for a lot of people who are excited to get together, but end up feeling let down by hurtful family and friends. During this time of my husband healing from cancer; God has immensely blessed our own family with … Continue reading When Thanksgiving Hurts… A Bite of Encouragement for Struggles with Self Worth, Rejection, Forgiveness, and Boundaries
We’ve been to the oncologist this week. Except for a nausea, fatigue, pain, anxiety, agitation, and a touch of chemo rage; Dave’s done pretty well this round. Blood Work is, ironically, excellent; even the liver enzymes, as Dave continues taking Fen Ben. We’ve had some really rough days for Dave; filled with pain, fatigue, and … Continue reading 10/10 Dave’s Testimony: Terminal Cancer War… Our Soldier’s Personal Battle of Life or Death
Dave’s been running the longest cancer race ever; like NASCAR, where the cars keep going around and around the track, lap after lap after lap. “Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize” (1 Cor. … Continue reading 8/17 Dave’s Testimony: Cancer Racer Crashes… Pit Stop Prayer Team Sets in Motion More NASCAR Laps to Go!
The Silver Lining 