I’m tired, way past fatigue, and extended beyond exhaustion. I’ve barely been able to write. I am a regrettably a year behind in answering messages and replying to comments, and I’ve only written a few posts. But, I always post on Easter; my late husband’s favorite holiday and mine, so I’m giving it a go… … Continue reading 2024/3/31 Dying to Live… Easter Grief Through Loss… How Can Anyone Go on Without Jesus?
God gives the time; Jesus gives rest. Trusting in Him is the ultimate test. New Year’s lived out in the worse déjà vu; You couldn’t believe if this happened to you. His cancer is spreading, he’s been denied care, but miracle hospice is answer to prayer. Hospice. It’s a dreaded word; yet it’s the only … Continue reading 1/22/23 Dave’s Testimony: Hospice… God Provides a Way to Receive Rest and Pain Relief from Spreading Cancer
It’s a new day, a new year! So many of us have had hopes and dreams for the new year; only to have them crushed by tragedy and trauma of the unexpected. This is what happened to our family… In January 2022, after a clear colonoscopy scan in December, my husband Dave began to get … Continue reading Dave’s Testimony 2022: Our Entire Year of Terminal Cancer, Strength Through Jesus, and Trusting in God’s Healing Miracles… A Mini Book
We’ve been to the oncologist this week. Except for a nausea, fatigue, pain, anxiety, agitation, and a touch of chemo rage; Dave’s done pretty well this round. Blood Work is, ironically, excellent; even the liver enzymes, as Dave continues taking Fen Ben. We’ve had some really rough days for Dave; filled with pain, fatigue, and … Continue reading 10/10 Dave’s Testimony: Terminal Cancer War… Our Soldier’s Personal Battle of Life or Death
Dave’s been running the longest cancer race ever; like NASCAR, where the cars keep going around and around the track, lap after lap after lap. “Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize” (1 Cor. … Continue reading 8/17 Dave’s Testimony: Cancer Racer Crashes… Pit Stop Prayer Team Sets in Motion More NASCAR Laps to Go!
We find out early, before Friday’s appointment with the oncologist. Dave has had chemo on Monday and felt terrible afterwards. Tuesday he’s had his CT scan, the big one that tells if the cancer has grown or not. At this point, it’s Wednesday, and we’re seeing the surgeon, before the oncologist on Friday. We know … Continue reading 7/29 Dave’s Testimony: Sorrowful Cancer Scan Results and Strength Through Jesus Tee Shirts
Hi Honey, it’s been almost three years since you’ve been gone. Happy Birthday! I know your celebration today will be Heavenly! Today you’d be turning the same age I was when you left the earth. It’s so strange, as I grow older here; you’ll remain the same age in my memories. For myself, I wish … Continue reading Where’s the Exit? Heavenly Birthday Man, Since You’ve Been Gone…
My veteran is my late husband, David R. Pelleman, who died on February 21, 2023. After high school, Dave began his service to his country when he joined the United States Army, where he served from 1989-1994. He received his Advanced Individual Training in Fort Rucker, Alabama in September of 1989-1990. He was deployed to … Continue reading My Veteran was Willing to Die for His Country… Jesus Willingly Died for the Whole World!
My Shooting Star Last night I saw the brightest shooting star, And saw a glimpse of you from Heaven…far; A gift from God to see you shining bright, So brilliant, even though, dark was the night. And though they call it Orionid’s Shower, I know it comes from God; Our Higher Power, Who makes the … Continue reading My Shooting Star… Poetry & Awe: GOD’S Majestic Heavens! (Orionid’s Meteor Shower, October 2025)
Dear Dave, Right before you left the earth, we had a moment that was true. We looked into each others eyes, And both of us said, “I love you.” Your eyes were always hazel brown, But that day they were green. I saw in them, the worlds between you; many things unseen. Everything still left … Continue reading Your Green Eyes (I Still See Them in Our Children…)
You were once my soldier boy, And I, your pretty girl. We sent each other letters; We were happy in the world. You became my soldier man, And I became your queen. Then we went to places We had never, ever seen. Marrying my soldier meant Our dreams were coming true. Promises of love declared … Continue reading Soldier Boy… a 21 Gun Salute (a Memorial Day Poem)
Oh God, my God, here comes my enemy again. Make it go away. I know it’s coming when at night, I become cold, needing three blankets to get warm. Cold chills creep up and down my shivering body. Black shadows come. I sleep that way, knowing what the morning will bring: Fear. Relentless and cruel. … Continue reading GIANTS… A Battle Psalm (2 Year Anniversary of My Husband’s Death. Dave Pelleman lives in Heaven)
My like is complete chaos… filled with grief, stress, health issues, anxieties, and responsibilities unheard of… just one person dealing with way too much in this chaotic world gone mad. I’d hate being president. I’d have to be responsible for an entire country, not to mention what I can barely handle as a new widow … Continue reading My 2024 Election Vote is SpongeBob for President… Let’s Love Like Jesus!
It would’ve been our 30th, But now you’ve gone and died. My gift is knowing you’re with Christ; The one they crucified. He loves you best, and better, than I ever even could. I’m sad, but also happy That your life is now so good. I heard your song the other day. I hadn’t driven … Continue reading 7/23/24 We’ll Never Have Paris… (Anniversary Poem)
Dearest Dave, Yesterday morning, after only one hour of sleep, the dogs woke me up to go outside. There was a gorgeous red sky, and I wanted to appreciate it. But, I was already seeing red; because I just couldn’t sleep last night… not at all. “Great is his faithfulness; his mercies begin afresh each … Continue reading 2024/2/21 Dear Dave, It’s Been an Entire Year of Grief… Heaven Sent Me a Cardinal
The Silver Lining 