It would’ve been our 30th,
But now you’ve gone and died.
My gift is knowing you’re with Christ;
The one they crucified.
He loves you best, and better,
than I ever even could.
I’m sad, but also happy
That your life is now so good.
I heard your song the other day.
I hadn’t driven far;
Turning up the volume drowned
My sobbing in the car.
It’s hard down here without you;
Our kids aren’t feeling great,
I pray for mercy healing
With a sweeter twist of fate.
Today marks 30 years of love,
Our anniversary,
What should be, but now isn’t;
Just a day for you and me.
I miss my husband; and our
Children really miss their father.
I’ll celebrate the best of us;
Our twins sons and our daughter.
I’ll celebrate with you, because
It comes as no surprise:
I hear you through their laughter,
And I see you in their eyes.
I wish that I could turn back time;
I really, really do,
To spend this day with my true love;
It always will be you.
The other day while crying,
I yelled out to God, “Why.. WHY?”
But, I still have joy in knowing
You are happy in the sky.
The healing still is hurting,
But the silver lining pleases:
My husband gets to spend
Our anniversary with Jesus.
We’ll never have had Paris,
Like the way we’d hoped to do;
But instead, we’ll live in Heaven!
Happy 30th to you!
‘But, as it is written, “What no eye has seen, nor ear heard, nor the heart of man imagined, what God has prepared for those who love him” ‘ —
(1 Cor. 2:9 ESV)
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